*GROAN*

Party Guest: "Are you dating anyone? Cause my wife and I love fixing people up."
Me: ...
Party Guest: "We are always on the lookout for someone for her brother. He lives in North Carolina."
Me: "Yeah, that's a little too far away."

"I don't want to sell anything, buy anything, or process anything as a career. I don't want to sell anything bought or processed, or buy anything sold or processed, or process anything sold, bought, or processed, or repair anything sold, bought, or processed. You know, as a career, I don't want to do that."

Happy Birthday JC!

Magic Hour

Friday night I had a work party. I helped organize it, alot of people came, ate, played and a good deal of fun was had. I came home and cried myself to sleep.

There were a number of people there who I haven't seen in years and who no longer speak to me because of something that happened at the beginning of my relationship with The Boy.. The X-Boy. The person we hurt the most and I have begun speaking again. Of course we don't talk about what happened, or even acknowledge it. What I would say and have said to her is I am sorry. I am sorry she was hurt and that I caused that hurt. I am sorry we were careless with her feelings. It doesn't matter if we were in the right or not it matters that we hurt her.

Now that I look back on it we caused pain for what? The X-Boy and I didn't even make it. We were stupid, selfish and caught up in our own hubris.

Being at the party made me realize just how much I miss him. Seeing all those people brought a flood of memories. I feel awful without him. As much as he hurt me I still love him. And I'm sad without him.
-Chel

Today was a two slice day. (two slices of chocolate cake) I was out of the office at meetings all day so of course upon returning to the office I had a conservative slice of cake. It was reading my email that drove me to the second piece of cake. *sigh*

I Will Not Be Orange, I Will Not Be Orange

When I lived in Hollywood it was acceptable to be pale, brooding and only go out after dark. Now that I'm living at the beach I'm out in the sun much more and even though I've been using sunblock number 92 I've begun to tan. Well half of me has anyway. The other half remains porcelain.

So on a whim at Target I bought a lotion that promises "a subtle hint of color". It seemed so innocuous. Well compared to that tan in a bottle stuff. So I've been using it for about three days and you know it makes my skin smell funny. Now there's something they don't put on the label. "A subtle hint of color and luxuriously weird smelling skin." Well, at least I'm not orange.
-Chel

Run Run Run Away

Today I want to quit my job. Just run away screaming.

Recently I met with a financial planner and told him it was imperative that I have enough money in reserve that if I need to leave I can just go.
-Chel

The cherry danish was taunting me... so I ate it.

OH. MY. GOD. her butt is sooo big

So I have this pair of shoes with a very slim metallic heel. Love the shoes! Love to wear them to work. Love, Love, Love them.

However, when I’m wearing them I must at all times be on the alert for cracks in the sidewalk. The other day I step off the sidewalk and am almost run down by a woman chatting on her cell phone driving a giant SUV. She hit the brakes and I was so busy giving her the stink eye I missed seeing a crack. So she was rewarded with the site of my ass as I bent over and hopped around on one foot trying to extricate my shoe from the middle of the street. I wrenched my shoe free, assembled my dignity and hopped daintily across the street.

-Chel

I've been feeling sad and a little anxious this week. I think it is a delayed reaction from Dolly and Mr. H leaving. I'm under a ginormous amount of pressure at work. I've been working on getting this contract signed for what seems like forever and everytime I think it is going to go there are more changes. grrr!

Last week a staff report I worked on/wrote for some consulting work for our grand opening came under fire in a newspaper editorial. It was harsh! There is still alot of fallout and damage control going on. But hey on the upside I was party to riling up a community. :)

So last night I watched Harold and Kumar go to White Castle and laughed hysterically. Thank you Harold and Kumar!
-Chel

Settling Down

Things are finally starting to settle down after the move, the wedding and houseguests. It was such a joy to have Dolly and Mr. H as houseguests. We had a fabulous time.

This weekend I'm volunteering for the Pediatric AIDS fundraiser. This is the 3 year I've done it and it's always a good time. After that I'm looking forward to a summer of loafing, hiking and going to the beach.
-Chel

Asparagus

Why does asparagus make your pee smell funny?