Ahimsa (non-violence)

Last night was truly horrible.

The Whore was at yoga. After class I confronted her. I asked her why she was there? I said do you know how much pain you've caused me, how it makes me feel to see you here. Do you know what she said to me? "I didn't think you thought it was a big deal." NOT A BIG DEAL! I said you've been fucking him for over a year. "Well, I didn't realize you were so upset." I said out of respect for me and for what you've done, don't come back to class. Take another class. Then I added that I hoped to God that she would one day have the opportunity to experience the pain she had caused me. She said "Thank you."

How is it possible that I am in the worst pain, pain that she is in part responsible for and she is so utterly insensitive and clueless? What kind of person is she? If I were fucking someone's boyfriend for a year I would think it was a very big deal and know that I was causing pain to another person. WTF?

By the time I got to the car I was so upset I was hysterical. I called The Boy. I tried really hard to maintain. But I ended up leaving two hysterical messages on his voicemail - asking him how she could have possibly got the idea that this situation was no big deal. From him?

When I got home The Boy called and was rewarded with brunt of my anger. We ended up talking and crying for over an hour. No, nothing has changed. We are both sorry things ended this way and he'll make sure The Whore does not come back to class.
-Chel