Nothing to say
Dear Dolly,
How many times have I started this entry? I've lost count. I have something to say and yet I have nothing to say. Anything that I want to say sounds full of self pity. I really want to talk about how much I hate being single again. And I do. But then I think it must be my fault. There is something that I'm not seeing. Something that I'm not learning. Some reason this part of my life just doesn't work. I feel like such a failure.
My cousin's baby died. The funeral was last week. I've been sitting here staring at this blank card trying to find the words to express how sad I am for them. And nothing is coming out. I mean there are no words to say how fucked up it is to lose your six month old son. I worry about them too as a couple. Will they be able to survive this heartbreak?
I'm tired tonight. My soul is weary.
-Chel
posted by Sacred Fuchsia at 8:51 PM
2 Comments:
Chel,
Why didn't you call me about your cousin? I tried to reach you today. I am almost ready for sleep, but I will call you. me
8:59 PM
Buck up girlfriend! Once the negative energy surrounding you leaves, then everything will be fine. You've just got to get out of the fog. Easier said than done, but it will happen. You just have to believe. Focus on putting out into the universe what it is that you want and even though you have no clue how it will happen, the universe will take care of you.
I'm sorry to hear about your cousin's baby. I hope you have a better day today.
1:13 PM
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