You're in my head
Dolly,
The Boy gave me shit about reading Kev's blog. BHA HA HA HA! You've been fucking That Whore and you are going to give me shit for reading a blog. BHA HA HA HA!
Speaking of The Whore. Now that I've excised her from my waking life she's been in my dreams. Yesterday morning and this morning I woke up from dreams that involved her. I know it's my brain's way of working out stuff that I can't/won't deal with while I'm awake but give me a fucking break here. I need some peace. Peter says I should meditate and do this exercise where I send her a beam of white light from my heart. FUCK THAT! He's talking about forgiveness. I'm not ready to forgive her or him. I want to wallow in bitterness and be angry.
Have a great day!
-Chel
posted by Sacred Fuchsia at 9:10 AM
7 Comments:
Chel, you SO deserve to be angry at The Whore. Forget that white light shit. Anger can be cleansing, too. I speak from experience...
-Trixie
2:21 PM
It can be cleansing to a certain point until it begins to run your life. Please be careful Chel...it may be time to address the issue in other ways. love ya, me
9:01 PM
Oh please! I've only been wallowing for two weeks. And only on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. Although on those days I do think about exacting revenge. BHA HA HA HA!
9:29 AM
Then forget it. It's just that every entry is angry. I tried to reach you several times last night. What is going on? I should be home around 8 tonight if you want to call. I am also going home this weekend and will exchange the box at Robert''s. --dolly
11:30 AM
I'M SAD! And I'm hurting. We were together for 4 years I can't just fucking snap out of and be fine. This is the angry phase. I am angry, Damnit! I thought I could say anything I wanted here but obviously I was wrong. I'll try to be a little more cheerful in my posts. -chel
1:16 PM
It's okay to be angry at the whore, but remember it takes 2 to tango. Be angry at the boy too. Do what you have to do, be angry, be vindictive - do whatever it takes and then move on. You deserve to be happy and as long as these 2 people are in your thoughts you will never be what you want to be.
The good news is once you get past the angry, vindictive phase the rest should be smooth sailing! Unless of course you do something really bad and have to serve prison time...HeeHee - just joking girlfriend!
:)
12:50 PM
BHA HA HA HA! Prison! Now how did you know what I was thinking? ;)
11:33 PM
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