A Regular Day

I woke up this morning in heart wrenching pain. I didn’t want to leave the dream because he was there. I wanted to stay and be close to him. Memories and dreams are all I have left. But the pain was unbearable. And I slipped away. I mourned the loss of him all over again.

-Chel

Irrationally happy

On and off for the past few weeks I’ve been what I’d call irrationally happy. I think on the whole I’m a pretty happy person. But this is just days where I’m giddy with happiness. Today for example I’m just so happy and excited. I see possibilities everywhere and I want to run out and tackle the world. There is no reason for me to be this happy. It’s a normal day. I overslept, ran late to work, the apartment’s a mess, I haven’t done my homework for class, I have 500 billion projects going at work and now I’m typing this entry while eating Brown Cow yogurt. I’m beginning to think it’s a chemical imbalance.

Isn’t that a sad statement when I think being this happy is not normal and must be caused by a chemical imbalance rather than things going well.

Chel

Good Grief

it's been like a 100 years since i've posted.

i was in Seattle this weekend with Dolly and Kay. it was wonderful to see them. i forget how much i miss them until i see them and have to leave again. we did girl stuff, ate cheese dip (apparently i eat more cheese dip than anyone), they played monopoly, we went to bead shops, yarn stores and a number of baby stores. and we went to the Seattle Public Library. i'll admit it. i geeked. it was a-ma-zing.

i loved being with them. and i can't wait until little baby vi arrives.

xxx's
Chel